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“uh…ummm…Alyssa?” I asked, wondering if she had done something to herself.
“I’m over here,” she called, I found her, wild eyed with a heap of items in front of her on the floor.
She fell onto her bed, crying once more.
“Lyss, what is all this?” I asked curiously,
“everything he ever gave me,” she said thickly.
“holy shit,” I muttered to myself
I went to get a bag from her mother, I put the stuff in the bag, wow there sure is a lot of it, I thought, there was books, jewelry, a teddy bear, photos of them together…
I put it in the bag and put the bag outside in the hallway. Alyssa was curled into a ball on her bed, her blue fleece blanket pulled tight around her. I went to her computer and put some of her favorite songs on a playlist,
Plus a few others, I played Saturday first, as I knew it was her favorite song of all time, plus the one that always calmed her down when she was like this. Alyssa seemed to have run out of tears; she was staring blankly at the wall, curled into a ball. I laid down next her and wrapped my arms around her. She didn’t push me away, but she didn’t move closer either. After about 45 minutes, she fell asleep, I slowly got up and left. I stopped to tell her mother she was asleep and to tell her to call me if she needed anything. She nodded and I went home.
Alyssa’s POV
As Saturday filled my ears, my crying eased and I stared at the wall, angry and upset. Brendon wrapped his warm arms around me and I lay there, thinking of all the good times me and Mike had had together. The time we went to the renaissance festival, when he bought me the new Harry Potter book (yes I’m a nerd.) Christmas eve, we spent it together. That was the night he gave me the bear. My birthday, when he gave me the bracelet. The day he gave me the ring. Sadness so black engulfed me I felt like I would never get out. Then I realized I was falling asleep. With Brendon right there next to me, he was singing Remembering Sunday softly, I fell asleep to his beautiful voice in my ear.
Jessica’s POV
Mike and Alyssa had broken up. Brendon had just called, he was calling our group of friends, to spare Alyssa having to explain it. I felt bad for her. She might not want to go to the dance now, seeing as now she had no date. Brendon might take her, I knew he didn’t either.
Poor Alyssa, I thought, Mike has been such an asshole sometimes over the last year, she's probably better off without him anyway.
Dancing is our thing, the thing that me and Alyssa had always loved to do together. I resolved to go over to her house the next day, she was going to that dance. Dancing was like antibiotics for us. It always killed the sadness.
Alyssa’s POV
I woke up the next morning feeling gross and miserable. I walked into my bathroom and looked in the mirror. Tear tracks ran down my face, black makeup was smeared everywhere. I had fallen asleep with my shoes on. I hadn’t even taken my jacket off. I got into the shower and scrubbed hard. Wishing I could wash away the misery that was crawling on my skin. By the time I got out it was almost noon. I couldn’t decide if I still wanted to go to homecoming or not. What if Mike is there? I threw on a pair of black and white plaid PJ pants and a black hoodie. I was starving. I hadn’t eaten anything since lunch yesterday. I walked downstairs to find my mother making pancakes. My mom thinks food can fix heartaches. It certainly makes them easier to handle.
I smiled weakly and shoveled down the food. I was drinking some orange juice when my mom started talking.
“so hon, Brendon told me you had a rough day yesterday. I’m so sorry baby girl.” I only nodded. I didn’t trust myself to speak. Good old Brendon, he probably let everyone else know too, so I wouldn’t have to explain it again.
“thanks for the pancakes mom,” said quietly,
“are you still going to the dance tonight sweetie?” I shrugged. I still hadn’t made up my mind.
I had this strong urge to do something drastic to my look. I had an idea. I ran it pat my mom and she said fine. She’s one of those parents that don’t care what I do to my look, as long as I pay for it. And I don’t come home with holes in my face. I went and got dressed, and walked to the drugstore. I was going to put violet highlights in my hair. I grabbed a highlighting kit, those boxes that have the cap thingies in them, which was a blond color so I could get my natural dark coloring out. So the violet would stay better. I also got a box of purple hair dye and hurried home.
3 hours later and I was purple. Highlights were all over my head, more in the back and some pieced into my bangs. I loved it. For that short amount of time I forgot about the rest of my life, the part that was slowly falling apart.
Jessica’s POV
I called Amber, Ivy, and Andi and we all headed over to Alyssa's around 3:30. Her mom let us in and we headed up to her room. We walked in and her head was purple.
What?
She had put bright violet highlights in her hair, every time she goes through emotional trauma; she does something weird to her look. But they looked good. We all told her they looked great.
“hey guys, um....what are you doing here?” she asked.
“We came to get you ready for homecoming,” I said.
“I don’t know if I want to go any---“
I cut her off, “you are going, dancing always makes you feel better,” she looked at the four of us in her room and recognized defeat. We got our dresses, mine was a short black and pink halter with a fairy skirt.
Ambers is a silver and white spaghetti strap that fell to her knees.
Andi’s is maroon, short in the front, and just brushing the floor in the back, halter.
Ivy’s was a light green spaghetti strap, mini skirt in the front and fell to her ankles in the back, covered in sparkles.
Alyssa was the best of all. In a purple and black minidress. Lavender with a black sparkly overlay and shiny black straps crossed in the back. I understood why she had picked purple for her hair, it matched her dress perfectly. We painted her nails black and shiny. I spiked her hair and sprayed glitter in it. She put her eyeliner on with her expert hands. She used a black liquid for her upper lids, I was jealous. Every time I tried using it I got it in my eyes.
She used it to make tails gently curving upwards, then a black pencil for her lowers, and lavender cream shadow. Perfect, her makeup was always perfect. Her green eyes glittered underneath her bangs and makeup. She was determined not to let Mike ruin this night. She didn’t have a date now, but that was, in my eyes, a good thing because she could dance with as many guys as she wanted.
At 7:30 the guys showed up. Mike2 with me, Jon with Amber, Spencer with Ivy, Andi didn’t have a date, and Brendon with…who?
“I’m taking Alyssa,” he told us when we gave him a weird look.
“is Alyssa aware of this?” Andi asked,
“No, no she's not.” He responded, smiling. The eight of us walked out to Brendon's monster, the girls tottering a bit on our 4 inch heels, and jammed ourselves in.
Andi’s POV
I did NOT like Alyssa’s new look. It was bad enough she wore skinny jeans and spiked her hair, but now she's going to do this? Why can't she just be normal again? This is not the Alyssa that used to be my best friend. I was supposed to spend the night at her house tonight, but told her I couldn’t. I think I should try distancing myself a bit, until she goes back to the Alyssa I used to know.
HOLY SHIT HALEY JUST TOLD ME TOKIO HOTEL IS GOING TO BE IN MICHIGAN THE SAME WEEKEND I AM!!!!!!!!!! IN OUR MALL AT HOT TOPIC!!!
Anyways......I just started thinking about home and how much I miss my friends. I guess I'm just homesick....
AH I CAN'T BE SAD NOW I'M TOO EXCITED
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Alyssa’s POV
There was some big football game tonight, it was to crown the homecoming queen and king. Since I had no interest in participating in or watching a popularity contest, which a cheerleader and a football player will probably win, I decided that I wanted to do something cool with my hair tonight. I was at my locker getting some books for my homework when I saw Mike come around the corner.. He looked angry.
“hey,’ I said, kissing him, “what’s wrong?”
nothing.
“Mike?”
still nothing.
“HEY. What has been up with you lately? You’ve been acting totally weird all week.”
“I don’t know,”
“your mad at me about Dylan and Brendon and them again aren’t you.”
“I guess,” he said.
“WHAT THE FUCK?” I yelled, “are you kidding me, this stupid shit again? I have NEVER cheated on you!”
“How am I supposed to believe that? If you are then you would lie and tell me you weren’t!”
I stood there, stunned. What is his problem?!?!
“Dylan is your ex! I’ll bet that’s what you do every time you hang out with him, plan ways to torture me. And Ryan and Brendon, you always pay more attention to them than me.”
“no I don’t! Mike, I love you, I don’t ignore you. But just because you’re my boyfriend, it doesn’t mean I’m going to dump all my other guy friends. Most of whom, I’ve been friends with for TWICE as long as I’ve known you.”
“That doesn’t make me feel any better about it”
“I don’t care! It’s the truth. In case you never realized this: I left Dylan to be with you! And if it weren’t for Ryan, I wouldn’t have ever been interested in you. Ryan is the one who fucking told me you liked me in the first place!”
I turned to leave, furious. He grabbed my arm and wouldn’t let me go.
“Let me go! Let go of me!” I yelled and he let go.
“fine! We’re over whore!” he yelled at my back.
I walked away, tears of sadness and fury in my eyes. We were over. The night before the dance.
I stormed away from the school, but I didn’t go home. Blinded by tears, I found myself at the local park. I sank down onto one of the swings and cried. I must have been there for hours; I saw the sun sinking below the landline, painting the sky blood red. I saw Brendon walking towards me. He must have been heading home from somewhere; I saw the monster in the parking lot. I looked up at him, tear tracks on my face, black rings around my eyes, I was a mess.
Brendan's POV
I was driving home from the music store (I needed guitar strings) when I saw Alyssa sitting on the swings at the park, her head in her hands, alone.
Not a good sign.
I parked and walked over to her, she looked up at me, tears swimming in her big green eyes, and raccoon eyes from crying. Worried, at sat down in the sand in front of her,
“hey…..hey what happened?” I said worriedly, she sniffled and replied,
“M-Mike and I had a r-really bad fight. H-he thought that I was c-cheating on him again, a-and we broke up.”
She dissolved into fresh tears. I felt a strange rush of happiness and sadness at the same time, Alyssa was totally destroyed, yet I finally had a chance. She was in love with Mike, they had been together for over a year and it was her first really serious relationship. I felt so bad for her, I took her in my arms and she cried into my shoulder. We sat there for a while, me holding her, and I finally said,
“come on, I’ll give you a ride home, and I’ll stay with you for a while.”
She nodded and grabbed her backpack from a few feet away. I called my mother and told her I would be home in a few hours, a friend needed me. She understood. My mom has always been cool about stuff like that.
We got in the car, she was sitting next to me, her head bent as she stared at her lap, crying silently.
Fucking shithead, I thought, what kind of person breaks up with his girl the night before a dance?
We walked up her front porch steps and into the living room, her mom looked at us both, alarmed when she saw the state of her daughter. Alyssa just went straight up to her room. I could hear banging and thumping and wondered what she was doing.
“um...Brendon, what’s wrong with Alyssa?” Mrs. Gilbert asked me, “I’ve been worried sick about her, she was supposed to come straight home from school today and she wasn’t answering her cell phone.”
I sighed heavily.
“She’s been up at the park, her and Mike broke up. She’s been really torn up about it. Apparently he thought she was cheating on him AGAIN.”
Mrs. Gilbert looked angry now, “what is that boy’s problem?!?!”
I shrugged,
“I found her sitting on the swings on my way home from getting some guitar strings, I gave her a ride home and said I’d stay with her for a while. Is that alright?”
she nodded sadly, “go ahead,”
I walked upstairs to find her room in shambles.
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“alright, lemme find Andi though, she’s supposed to spend the night this weekend, I need to remind her to ask her mom about it. Why don’t you go find the guys and I’ll meet you out front. Oh, and ask Mike2 if he’s coming Jess.” Jessica nodded and they walked off. I went to find Andi.
Jessica’s POV
Yay, I have an excuse to find Mike2, I thought, I separated from Amber and Ivy, who were searching for Brendan, Ryan, Jon and Spencer, and headed towards his locker. He was there.
“hey Mike, are you coming over to Brendon's for rehearsal?” he turned to look at me,
“uh…I can, but I have to leave a little early for work.” He said,
“you have a job? Since when?”
“yes I have a job, I work at that little diner around the corner, I have to be there by 4:30”
“practice starts at 3:30”
“I know” he said.
“did Alyssa or Mike tell you about the little surprise we have for them?”
“nope, what is it?”
“well, we have a little recorder that we borrowed from the manger of that new club that’s opening right? And we’re going to record practice today, and if he likes it, he’s going to let Panic! play there. As a job!”
“really? whoa that’s cool,”
“then lets going!” I grabbed his hand and pulled him out front.
As we left the school, I saw a poster hanging on the wall:
Come to the Homecoming Dance!!
This Saturday, 8:00 in the gym
Neat!! I’ll have to remind Alyssa about that, we are total dancing addicts.
Alyssa’s POV
After I found Andi, she told me she would call me tonight, I headed towards the front door to meet the others so we could head to Brendan's. Mike found me,
“hey,” he said “oh hey hon, are you coming with us?”
“no I can’t sorry.”
“fuck. I have to get going then, they’re waiting for me” he looked a little grouchy,
“are you okay?” I asked,
“I don’t know,” and he walked away.
I was a little concerned, but I had better things to worry about than what he was mad at me about this time. He was always getting mad at me for something, hanging out with Dylan and Brendon was his main problem. So I figured that’s what it was this time. I shrugged it off, and headed out the doors. Brendon, Jon, Spencer, Ryan, Mike2, Jessica, Ivy, and Amber were out front waiting for me. We all piled into Brendan's giant SUV, he was 16 so he had his license, it was a squeeze. He had one of those ones that had three rows, so it was Brendon driving with Ryan in the passenger seat, me, Ivy, and Spencer in the 2nd row, then Jon, Mike, Jessica in back, with Amber sitting on Jon’s lap. Good thing it was only a ten minute drive.
Jessica’s POV
After we had sardined ourselves into the car, I said to Alyssa,
“hey did you see that sign for homecoming on Saturday?”
“No I didn’t!! yay.” She said.
“What should we wear?”
“I dee kay, I’m thinking black.” She said. Of course she is, Alyssa loves black. “Are you going to go with Mike?”
“I don’t know, he’s been acting really stupid lately. I love him, I really do, but I’m getting tired of his jealous paranoid thing”
I felt a rush of sympathy for her, she had been with Mike for a year, they were in love, and he was ruining it by trying to make sure that she wasn’t.
“well, anyway, we are getting together that day, all five us, and we’re gonna get ready to go together right?” I asked,
“yea I guess,“ she said, “I’ll ask Andi if she wants to. No wait. Im going to MAKE her come, we are going to give her a makeover, she’s not really very girly and probably will have no idea what to do.” All 8 of us laughed. Andi is the tomboy of the girls, she never wears makeup and hates dressing up.
“so whose house?” I asked,
“We can meet at my place.” Alyssa said.
“Me, you, Ivy, Andi, and Amber. And whoever our dates are can come over and do pics and stuff before we leave.”
“Alright that sounds cool,” Amber said. We had arrived at Brendon’s; Alyssa gave us a look as she grabbed her backpack off the floor.
Right before we got out of
“I’d love to,” he kissed me on the cheek and we headed towards the garage. I couldn’t stop smiling. Mike had finally asked me out!
Alyssa’s POV
Brendon, Ryan, Spencer, and Jon grabbed their instruments and started tuning. I casually bent down to my backpack and turned the recorder on, I didn’t start recording yet though, I had to wait until they were playing. I moved it to an outer pocket so the sound wouldn’t be muffled, and waited until they started playing. I noticed Jessica, Mike2, and Amber had lit up.
“ugh, would you guys mind NOT doing that around me?” I said, “it smells horrible.”
They only grinned and exhaled smoke in my direction. I hate smoking with a passion. My grandmother got cancer from it and died. They say its relaxing, but whatever.
They started with I Write Sins Not Tragedies, right before they started I quickly pressed the RECORD button. They followed with Camisado, then a decent There’s a Good Reason These tables Are Numbered, Spencer faltering the opening only slightly, then But It’s Better If You Do. Then I pushed the off button. I noticed that Mike2 had left, he must have gone to work. Jessica looked extremely happy for some reason and I made a mental note to call her that night. I told the guys that I had to head home to help my mom with dinner and took off towards the club. I didn’t know it’s name yet, the sign wasn’t above it yet.
Boy, was that sign there when I walked up to it. Bright neon green letters read THE SCENE. Perfect name for a club, I thought. I walked in and Brad looked up from his computer, I waved the recorder for him to see, I showed a little smile and I handed it to him.
“Well, here it is, I came straight here from practice,” I said, “its not even over yet, there are four songs on there.” We sat and he turned it on, I told him the names of the songs as they were played. I saw his foot tapping and knew it was a good sign.
After it was finished, he said, “that was really good, I like their style.” I grinned wide enough to split my face in two.
“will they play at the opening next Saturday? I have two other bands scheduled for that night, I like them so I think they should go on first.”
“really? Oh wow thanks so much, they’ll be thrilled!”
“make sure they practice enough, I heard the drummer falter on that second song.”
“yea, of course I will.” I said thanks and raced out the door. I couldn’t wait to tell them. I ran as fast as I could back to
Ryan’s POV
We were in the middle of Boys Will Be Boys when Alyssa burst in the door. We stopped playing, she was out of breath and her hair was wild. She had a joyful look on her face.
“What’s wrong? What happened?” Brendon stuttered after she had collapsed into a chair.
“I have got awesome news for Panic! at the Disco.” She said. I was extremely confused.
“what?” Jon said.
“I got you guys a show.” She stated.
What???
“well, WE got you guys a show.”
We?
“okay, what’s going on?” Spencer asked.
“okay, we, me and the girls, all think you guys are ready for a show. You know that new club that opening next week? The Scene? Well, I went and talked to the manager, let him listen to some of your stuff and he wants you to be the first act on opening night next Saturday!”
I was stunned. I didn’t know whether to cheer or punch something. Hadn’t we said we weren’t ready? A stunned silence followed her words. We must have looked a little annoyed because she went on to say,
“I know you guys said you weren’t ready, but we all think you are! C’mon you guys, the guy thinks you’re really good, he gave you first spot on opening night. You have to be a little proud of that.”
Slowly I got excited. This guy really wanted us to play this club. We all erupted into cheers. I hugged all four of them. So did Brendon, Spence, and Jon.
“WOOOO!!!!”
Alyssa finally shouted over the noise, “I have to get home, but you guys better practice up and get a setlist, you go on next Saturday at eight o clock.”
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ABSOLUTELY RIDICULUS BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!
First we (me and my biffle Haley) saw Gym Class Heroes but left after only two songs because people just couldn't seem to keep their feet on the ground, if you know what i mean. So we got sick of getting kicked in the head so we went and checked out Merch until The Academy is... went on. William was adorable as usual and I loved the new songs they played. I got to meet Alex and get a picture taken with him at the Cobra Starship merch stand!! We did some more shopping (unfortunately they were out of Clandestine *cries*) I got a Cobra starship Hoodie, a Chiodos shirt, a We The Kings bag, and and Vans tank. Then we went and got in lilne for Cobra Starship's signing session. We waited in line for TWO HOURS but we finally got to get there. I GOT TO HUG GABE!!!! He said that the Clandestine bat nacklaces I made for me and Hales were "fucking awesome" and i pretty much had a heart attack. and he pretty much signed right on my boob on my hoodie lol. Then we checked out We The Kings (someone by us smelled like weed) and Chiodos (and watched crazy shirtlesss scene guys hardcore dance in a moshpit while we laughed hysterically) and headed home.
So that was my Warped day. It wasd truly onbe of the greatest days ofmy young life!! lol Can't wait for next year!! *collapses in bed and sleeps for two days*
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